apologies

Universe fall apart, and certain parts are re-used.

This story has suffered from a meltdown, I am afraid, however, it will reincarnate soon. and perharps this blog might provide useful information.

Goodbye for now

As I am writing this, they are knocking on my door, soon they will get impatient and break it down. I am going to try and run away, which means I will have to permanently go off the grid. I am sorry, but I cannot tell you everything. I will run as fast as I can. I managed to decipher all the garbled stuf. It is my fault. All of it. That thing is in here right now as well, watching my with its inhuman, empty, hollow face, tall and horrible, like a bringer of chaos, the messenger of the old gods.

I am going to leave now, goodbye and thank you for everything, and to anyone who has been after me, if you think you can mess with my brain, I would rather dye a wall red with it than let you play with my mind.

Time to tune out. Goodbye...seheethtnrwhnrwbbtbebethnaentnetnetngqnq
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1 step forwards 2 steps back

So, there you have it, the somewhat cleaned up fragment. There was also a seperate file with some strange melody like thing that I(with some friendly assistance from the interwebs) was able to isolate. I will se if it is still around. But first here is the link:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ldQF-8IH8mo

That is all that was left after my computer started to go all wonky last night. I still don't know why, but rest assured, the original files are safe and sound for now, if you excuse my lame pun.

Hard work also pays of, so I made a transcript, which is another reason I waited so ling with all of this. It took me forever to get anything cleaned up enough, don't even bother asking about how many hours I spent on it. Let us just say that I will not be drinking any coffee the next two weeks. (But god, I could use a smoke!, to bad I quit)

So anyway here is the transcript, I still have no clue what to make of all this, and also, I have no idea what this actually is a recording of, so if anyone knows, please, feel free to tell me. Oh, yeah, as I said earlier, things are going well for me right now, and my health seems to have improved greatly as well as my ability to get a whole nights sleep. I do not feel "watched" anymore...most of the time at least. But I don't worry anymore. So, without much further ado, here is the transcript:

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Until I find more, stay tuned :)

Progress!

Remember the password protected files I told you about?

I think I have made some progress. However, I'm not sure if I a supposed to be happy or upset.

When I got back class today, there was something on desk, a knife, specifically, the one that disappeared a few days ago. And a medicine bottle with everything on label "redacted" with a black marker, and a symbol painted on the top of the flask. This symbol has recurred several times on my blog, and in the bottle there were small, egg shaped red pills. No, I have not taken one of them, since they...feel to weird on touch, they feel like plastic, not like normal pills. Besides, I do not know what is in them, it might be poison.

Here is where it gets interesting. There is a piece of paper in the bottle, and there was something written on it. I think I figured out what they mean, it said " how many " and then a circle was drawn on the piece of paper, also the letters ETNAD were written on it.

Also, schluessel was written on the bottom of the bottle, which is German for key. I believe this refers to the password of one of the files I found. So I started thinking, the letters spelled out "Dante" reversed, so this was an obvious reference to Dantes inferno. There were 9 circles, and so I texted my friend and asked him to try it. We tried it as a number and in various languages, and eventually we guessed it right, it was apparently in latin, novem.

Now, friends, guess what was in the file.

Is it a, a pink elephant

b, bohemian rhapsody dubstep remix

or,c, a sound file.

dindong, time is up, if you guessed c, you were correct, here have a virtual cookie.

Oh, and for the content? It is a recording of a radio, and a weird ass frequency, it is a lot of static and some repeated music, very generic sounding, interrupted by a combination of numbers and letters  and, as far as I can tell a full, spoken sentence that I was not quite capable of understanding. This is very weird.

If any of you has a suggestion to what this is, please do tell me, as I have a feeling that it somehow relates to all the talk about frequencies around here. I'm a little scared, happy and irritated. Whoever put this stuff in my room must have my best interests in mind. (at least I hope so).

Until further notice, stay tuned :)

cash2materiell

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well f***!

I blacked out. I think this has happened before, now however I am definitely sure it happened. I lost about 6 hours today, I remember getting a call from some doctor who said he had an urgent message for me regarding my health which he did not want to tell me over the phone. I am not sure how I should feel about that, what doctor calls a patient personally.(I use the public health-care system, they still use letters. The dentist has started to use text messages though).

After that I quickly tweeted about said development in case something happens to me on the day I have the appointment, he said he would send me an email with the time and date. I think it sounds suspicious.

However, I found something.

There was an unknown file on my computer when I woke up. It is a video file, approximately 15 minutes long, and I really do not know what to do now.

I mean, it could have been me who recorded the video while I blacked out, but I assume that I would remember something from the period, but no. I noticed that I missed time today because one second I was at my computer and the next I was lying on my carpet, 6 hours later. I did have some kind of dream though, I think. It was like the strange sequence in 2001: a space odyssey, right at the end where the main character(Dave?) falls into the monolith(?). Something like that anyway, only really short. It is all very fuzzy. The reason I definitely know that I blacked out now is because of the obvious. But i think I have had blackouts before, probably several times the last months, always I would "come to my senses" somewhere and I would feel like I just woke up and only had vague, dreamlike memories. All these memories are usually fuzzy but ordinary, nothing surreal about them at all. But this time...when I remember the dream sequence I might write it down.

I don't really know where to go from here. I might upload the video if you guys think it is a good idea, I am still trying to figure out whether or not I should watch it. I am afraid of what might be on it, but then again, it might just be me sitting in front of the computer, drooling for 15 minutes or something. Or it might be something else. 65 108 115 111 32 73 32 102 111 117 110 100 32 97 110 32 101 109 112 116 121 32 109 101 100 105 99 105 110 101 32 98 111 116 116 108 101 32 105 110 32 109 121 32 114 111 111 109 46 32 73 116 32 105 115 32 110 111 116 32 109 105 110 101 32 97 110 100 32 73 32 100 111 32 110 111 116 32 107 110 111 119 32 119 104 97 116 32 119 97 115 32 105 110 32 105 116 46 The name of the video is Infintyflatline/conversationtoconversion/fatalchoice

Also, I took some cool photos while visiting my parents, I will upload them here just for the hell of it, and also, I did not find my notebook or investigate the strange place I keep going on and on about.

Well, let me know what you guys think, and until the stay tuned.

(Oh, yeah there is a new tower bein constructed near where my parents live, people really don't want it built there, haha, bunch of conspiracy nutters!) 87 101 108 108 44 32 116 104 101 121 32 104 97 118 101 32 97 32 112 111 105 110 116 95 65 49 51


p.s. All in all, I can barely believe my own story. Well, I am trying to anyway, it seems very surreal to me, still something is going on and I am now trying to believe. In my own story;)


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hello/goodbye

It's strange how quickly things change. I feel bad, watched, followed, my life is not what it once was. Reality slips from my grasp, I keep loosing track o time. Days hours minutes. These moments o clarity are all I have to think. What am I doing and whats going onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

THIS IS whatsgoing on.hahahahahahahaha

help

I can't do this anymore. Not after what happened just a few nights ago, the dark is coming as the sun has set, and I do not know if I will live another night. So much strange stuff has happened that it has made me fear fo my life and my sanity.

I don't really know where to begin, everywhere I go I could encounter HIM/THEM, I'm no even sure of what I sw anymore. All I know is that it should not have been there. Not in my room.

I THOUGHT THEY WERE ALL IN MY HEAD!

I thought it was all in my head, in my dreams just my subconscious, lowest circuit8 of my head and my human conscioussness messing with me. I should have known better.

On new years eve I did not dream, and ever since new years eve I have hardly slept at all, every night a terror of infinite darkness, static images of madness and the vast, uncompromising chaos that lies just beyond mankinds ability to grasp, I really understand what ignorance is a bliss means now. I spent last night in the hospital. And I am not sure If i even slept at all, o just wandered up and down in my room in a dreamlike haze. I Now need to Question my sanity, for I heard nUmbers whIle walking up and down, like on a radio with poor reception. Some happy melody kept being repeated over and over and over and over and over between these numberS and occasIonal leTters, always a fake sounding vOice would say them i na monoTonOus Rythm.

The noight before I had some kind of epiphany late at night while lying half asleep in my bed. And after I reached for my phone and had begun to record I saw...THEM!

The men from my dreams, they were in my fucking room at the door as if nothing  they did should be noticed. I tried to yell, but suddenly I could not breath, I could hardly move and images flashed before my eyes. A suit, my old black suit and my old tie and the sunglasses I had planned on buying a few months ago. and more, some kind of empty room, a man on a chair. It was Michael, with blood on his hands that slowly ran from his wrists. A childs voice kept chanting "down the street not across the road". I turned around and saw.

It cannot have been, It should not be.



It was ME.

I guess a feW years older. I wAs injured, badly injured, I had bandageS Across myface and an eyepatch with some symbol I did not recognize on. I had many scars that went across my face and carried some type of waepon. At this sight I snapped backtoattention and went about trying to get up.

I told the THING/S that were in my rooM to leave both in swedish, english and german I think, bUt one of the them Suddenly appeared and lEaned over me and started choking me, and placeD on finger on the middle of my forehead. At this point I tried to breathe but passed out and saw it all from above. I heard a coarse, old sounding voice that felt like sanpaoer say: "versager".

The next thing I know I know my mother, father and paramedics were helping my, apparently I had some sort of seizure that night and they called an ambulance.

It was not a ucking seizure, I had a fucking bruise on my forehead this morning. It is gone now so you cannot see it anymore, but I keep having this stinging sensation in my neck. I am tyoing this quickly in fear of another "visit" tonight. I will upload all the footage on my phone as soon as I can.

I eel sick now.